还来不及
仔仔细细
写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴
的感觉我没给

he wishes for the cloths of heaven

had i the heavens' embroidered cloths,
enwrought with the golden and silver light,
the blue and the dim and the dark cloths
of night and light and half-light,
i would spread the cloths under your feet:
but i, being poor, have only my dreams;
i have spread my dreams beneath your feet;
tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

i shall end my night with a continuation of last night's melancholy...

and as the sun rose into another day, your smile still lingered far out in the horizon, though you're no longer around.

tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

她只是最最无辜的第三者
就算她消失
此刻告诉我能得回什么呢
责怪她又凭什么呢

她只是无意闯入的第三者
我们之间的困难
在她出现之前就有了
虽然我愤怒但是我明白的
把过错让她去背着那是不对的

it's been old school music listening all the way. been sorting out songs to sync in my phone and i've been hooked on all the old classics ever since hence the sudden outburst of lyric lifting onto my blog.

life's been good and can only get better.

if you wonder why my blog sounds all melancholy and emotional, it's because i only blog about melancholy stuff. it's hard to express happiness. i'm bad at expressing joy in words. i'm actually a pretty positive person who always makes the best out of the worst situations. yet my writing always brings out the worst of the best situations.

i've been really happy the past few days and jumping around like a monkey(see, told ya i can't express happiness all that well)..i've got a new toy, the iphone! =D all thanks to the very special person in my life. i feel pampered. (x

well i certainly think that things are moving along in a good direction though there're always times you ponder bout a certain thing or past or present or future but i guess it's but normal. and i certainly realise the changes you've made in your life and mine. i could probably describe it as how i thought a leopard never changes its spots but it turns out that this leopard has transformed so much that it has turned into a zebra. metaphorically, of course.

if you hesitate in your comprehension of whatever i have written, just move on. these are all but part and parcel of life and my life at that and so, you don't have to crack your brains over these issues.

i think i'm not thinking. it's late and i'm tired. but i'm duper happy cos i just d/l-ed damn alot of applications and tried them all and they're ULTIMATE fun!

ok i shall end with an expression of melancholy...

nothing but memories of your smile, melted into the sundown.

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away

and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

想为你做件事让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字

我想她的确是更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔优雅成熟懂事

如果我退回到好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要为难成这样子

后来我总算学会了如何去爱
可惜你早已远去消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人一旦错过就不再

那时候的爱情
为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤

如果当时我们能
不那么倔强
现在也不那么遗憾

还来不及和你
和你在一起
数着天空里坠落的星星
你已经离我而去爱没有继续
原来我根本不是你的唯一

我流干眼泪不能呼吸
我无法面对最后这个结局
曾经我们有过无数话题
爱到最后我们对爱竟会无能为力

You have never been in love,
Until you've seen the stars,
reflect in the reservoirs.

time passes you by, some memories fade, others still stand vividly. yet some things past will never be forgotten.

happy days, carefree life. roaring engines. soaring winds. lashing waters. soaking skin. matted hair. squinted eyes. sun sinking in the horizon behind. tasting the salty water. laughter. cheers. amazement. excitement. fear. happiness. all melted into the sundown.

yet the memories will always stay fresh and joyously nostalgic.

如果这最好的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们告别了单纯

life is transient. love is transient. what then is permanence? when things come to an end and we tell ourselves, this is for the best. what's best anyway? how do you define this?

if this were the best ending, why can't i let you go.
time has passed us by and this lost time has stolen our innocence.

难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我不该爱的人

can we really give our love so freely to someone else when our hearts are already filled to the brim, on the verge of bursting into flames.
fate. cruel fate. i know you're not my destiny and i can't hold on to you any longer.
i can't. i won't. how can i tell myself that you're one that i should not love.

我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我爱错了的人

i can't. i won't.
i can't bring myself to accept the fact that loving you was never right.

the past few days passed me by in a swirl of colours. the trip up to genting made me realise many small but significant things. and the colours of the entertainment city made everything all the more memorable, joyful and missed. the visit to the zoo and night safari rekindled my love for nature and i think these few days have been one of the happiest and most carefree days in a very long time.

it has been an eventful year though so early into it. a year of new beginnings, abrupt endings and endless learnings. and it has been a superb valentine's day. it's the first vday that i actually bothered to give effort and time to my friends. i guess all the recent events have led me to realise how important my friends really are to me whether they are close or not so close. guess everything has brought me closer to some friends and pulled me apart from others but on the whole, my life seems more balanced now. i used to let my life revolve around just one important person since years ago but i have learnt that it is not the best way to live a life.

i have been touched. many times. and deep down inside there are inklings of better tomorrows that i hope for and can almost see. it's as though some seeds have been planted and it is beginning to grow. slowly but surely.

upon hearing the news of the glenn ong jamie yeo breakup, i can't help but feel a tinge of sadness. they were the golden couple, so often celebrated and written about. he always talked about her, as though she was his world. and she always seemed the sweet girl she is to him. why. i've always envied and admired their relationship but it has turned into futile envy eventually. must all things always end this way?

love, is it really so f r a g i l e. like a piece of cheap paper, easily torn. like a piece of thin glass, easy broken. like bubbles, they burst, too soon.

i have loved so many in this life and many of them have stayed in my life and will stay throughout my life. thankful for all these blessed souls. i'm never one to regret my choices but i do regret one. one that has destroyed a wonderful friendship. maybe not destroyed but it has changed many things. i was wrong and i made it even more wrong. and two wrongs don't make one right just like two rights can't right a wrong. and so what it's been done and done and can't be undone. only times i feel the pain creep into my heart. a dull pain that can only contain a regret.

i had been foolish once and a fool can't save himself. some things once lost, can't be found again.

but blessing in disguise it must be. pulling myself out of the hole sooner than later. and returning in joyful spirit to someone. someone who cares. more. someone who loves. most. someone who gives. everything. someone who matters. who'll always matter the most to me.

still a little bit of me stuck in reverse but it is no longer the same as before. i will be liberated. in time. and i know that i will do as much to salvage whatever i have wrecked and will always treasure what i can salvage. always and always.

and i know, i must run to where it should matter.

thankyouforallthepatienceandeffortbecausewithoutyouiwouldnt
knowwhattodo.

happy valentine's day dearest friends! =D

will be away in genting from tomorrow morning till monday.

ciaos till then! (x

if this silence is what will make everything disappear and make tomorrows a little better, then let this be, let this always be.

a golden silence.

quote yips:

爱人的那一个，往往在不完美中找到完美
被爱的那一个，却总是在完美中寻找不完美

when we two parted
in silence and tears,
half broken-hearted
to sever for years,
pale grew thy cheek and cold,
colder thy kiss;
truly that hour foretold
sorrow to this.

the dew of the morning
sunk chill on my brow
it felt like the warning
of what i feel now.
thy vows are all broken
and light is thy fame;
i hear thy name spoken,
and share in its shame.

thy name thee before me
a knell to mine ear;
a shudder comes over me
why wert thou so dear?
they know not i knew thee,
who knew thee too well:
long, long shall i rue thee,
too deeply to tell.

in secret we met
in silence i grieve,
that thy heart could forget,
thy spirit deceive.
if i should meet thee
after long years,
how should i greet thee?
with silence and tears.

taken from sheryl's blog once again...

when it comes down to it all, all we really want is to be close to somebody. so this thing, whree we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. so we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. no matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. and sure, sometimes close can be too close. but sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

in this time and space, this is who we are and this is what we all will become. when time changes and spaces are blacked out. i guess it is fair to wonder, what will really be.

i'm gone i'm gone. away with the words that leave your crimson lips. hard to say you say. not so hard afterall we say. we'll stay we'll stay as we used to say. don't go. please. stay. but there are some things along the way that make us lose our gay. you know. i know. that things have a way of growing grey. as we turned our hearts away.

oh sweet flower, thy seeds are bitter. bitter seeds blossom into sweet flowers. with the water. with the sun. with the air. and some tenderness. there is nothing more to give. nothing more to sprinkle. the seeds are sweet but the flowers refuse to bloom. oh ugly day. thy crimson lips apart, breathe thee the air so sweet, thy perfumed lips doth empty a poisonous half-lie. words torn, withered, gone. the winds will carry thy seeds away. and blow blow mighty wind. await the dying of the storm.

little lamb you know not of my thoughts. of my longings and my desires all so consumed within themselves. of the very fruit that poisoned the soul. purged my spirit of its goodness. like a milked cow, every day i die a little more. i live a little less. i give a little more. and take a little less. little lamb so innocent and pure. little thoughts. they are not so little after all.

thy beauty, a fleeting moment. stretches. time expands. nothing changes. but the look in your eyes now cast in snow. thy beauty, surpasses. time. nothing changes.

yesterdays will never come back again. today will never show itself again. tomorrow will become yesterday too soon. time. waits for. no man.

真实

你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱真实的样子