if i had done things to people that made them unhappy but i knew i had not done anything against my own will, i think i should not feel unhappy. why did i ever gotten so weak that i had to beg for forgiveness. i don't regret going down on my knees but i regret having that slightest benefit of doubt given to the people who don't deserve a single bit of it.

i stood up for my every right. i should be proud of it. why did i hide my face and sounded to meek like a kitten? i had a willing heart to give in but it was futile and stupid. i should never have relented.

would you try to break up a couple if one of them is your good friend and the other one you dislike? if you truly cared for someone would you do such a thing? why bother giving so much to people who can't even give you basic respect?

karma comes and it doesn't go. what comes around goes around. and it is already beginning to show. slowly but surely.

if your friends treat your gf like an outcast and blatantly leave her out of gatherings and outings, what would you do?

被爱是幸福, 爱人是痛苦

no wonder there are so many who choose to be with someone who loves them more than anything in the world even though they may not feel as strongly.

it has been a cycle. many cycles. and it's been ongoing. and up till this very moment, my heart still feels the sickening crunch and the feeling of knowing that there are things or people that can override me is the worst feeling that i can ever hope to feel.