oddly, i feel like studying more. i feel like interacting more with people whom i never used to feel like even looking at. people who come and go in my life. those strangers, acquaintances. they seem to be the missing part of my life now. or perhaps these are the easier people to talk to. they come. they go. and it is okay if you do something bad, say something wrong. because they come and they go.

attachments and sentiments seem so faraway. so idealistic. why send the walls around you crashing down and find yourself so vulnerably defenseless only to realise that you gotta build them all around you again. why send them crashing down so effortlessly, only to slog day and night, bleed and sweat to build them higher and higher each time.

suddenly getting to know more people who come and go sounds good to me. come and go. come and go. when you start to really care about something or someone, you begin to realise that caring only means pain. that no matter how happy days can be, pain is inevitable.

pain is inevitable in love, it is even the equivalent of love. if you want to fall in love, take the pain. if you can't take the pain, don't even let yourself fall. because nobody is going to be there to break your fall.