i deliberately ignored someone i loved hoping that perhaps it'll be better that way, yet it hurt me more than anything. i'm being stupid.

these days are lonely with people around me hit with the studying fever. nobody's really around. it's hard to find good company. i should be studying, i know but there are times you just wish for someone to be around. it's hard keeping silent the entire day.

this is such a gruelling period of time. next semester will be better. i'll be more on task and slack less. will i?

it's easy to give up on things halfway. more often than not, it's easier to give up than to persevere. but when you look back and think about it, isn't it such a waste. something that you've put in so much effort, time and emotions into just gone like that? but at the wrong moments and when everything comes crashing down on you, you can't find anything to cling onto, you'll think of the bleak things. the devil is ever ready to make you give up and let go.

nothing ever comes easy. and i've been trying too hard. need a break sometimes...

back to those books. and another new colour on my hair tonight. two weeks ago i bleached my hair and had pink streaks. then it faded to an ugly bleached colour. one week ago i cut my hair short, much shorter than before. and today i'm gonna do another round of highlights..hope it turns out nice...=D

looking up, i think the weather's changing for the better, metaphorically wise. little miss sunshine is peeking out of her shelter again...she will be able to shine when mr sun is by her side...

this journey is filled with so many obstacles that try to trip me...i falter sometimes but with your strength i can stand up and walk by you again...there're too many confusion and dilemmas that i face and no matter what happens, i only know that if you're strong by my side, i will be stronger too...